I guess i won't be going for the next few days.
My parents isn't very happy already.
It's like... when you go out, supposedly... you would intend to spend $.
Be it like food or whatever.
But... bus fare's also require $ what.

Sometimes i really feel that I'm a failure in being a daughter.
Both of them just wanna see me study, score better marks.
That can already impress them.
So... why can't i just do it?
Is it because I'm lazy?

My father wants me to enter University.
University... he wants me to take the so called easier path.
By entering Junior College.
The L1R5 scores' standard are getting higher & higher.
I wonder... 2 more years, how would it be like then?

He knows that i doesn't like D&T.
Even though he's tired, he went all the way to schools, asking if there's any vacancy.
Went back to H.I.H.S, asking news about Pure Geography class.
I let him down, his expectation of me was actually being able to enter Triple Science.
To him, Pure Geography's a few levels down.
What about D&T?
It's even worse.
I should be glad already.
Disappointed him again & again, I should be glad already that he even let me go out!

Why can't i have the mindset of studying?
Tell me why?
Is it because i don't even feel like or what?
Sometimes i wonder... am i pressuring myself?
Until the fact that... i can't even complete my papers properly?

Oh, forget it.
What can i do with science?
When i don't even want to be a doctor who does surgery or whatsoever.
When i was young, i thought of being an actress, lawyer, psychology, CID, businesswoman & etc.
It was always changing because i always don't think that I'm up to it.

I'm feeling troubles in my head now.
About managing studies next year, what to do for the rest of the holidays & etc ( which i have no idea what they are ).
I guess, all this needs to do some time management.
Hey! Maybe I'm looking forward to school & wondering how it would be like.
I'm having mixed feeling man.

When can i find my ideal school bag for next year?
School's gonna reopen only just 1 week +!
It's like... I'm looking forward to school while i wish holidays could be longer. -.-
I don't like the feeling of being sleepy in class.
I don't know what can make me stay awake as well.

Oh yeah!
I realised i have Holiday 'Homework' for Chinese.
And i have to memorise 私憾的格式。
And have to read Chinese Newspaper every Wednesday.
I wonder which kind of question would they give.
I bet more than half of the class wouldn't bother to even read.

I hope next year would be a pleasant one.
I should say the rest of the years would be a pleasant one. :)

Yeah, he does.