Why?

why can't i go church?
church isn't a place where people anyhow go to.
it is a place where believers of God go,
to Praise & Worship.
why can't you just understand?

i want Freedom!
i want Understanding!
i want Faith!
& nothing else more.

I'm gonna do my best in auditions for HIHS Musical '08.
maybe that can help me earn something?

if i enter...
i would be able to receive one week of training from professionals.
i would like to experience that,
maybe that's my thing?

okay.
my 1st step is to participate in the audition.

i must have the self-confident.
no way i'm gonna be nervous.
i must be natural!
God, i'm gonna do my best!
& let's see how it goes.

yesterday was my brother's birthday.
i heard about him saying that it's the worst birthday ever he had?
i somehow wonder why he would say that.
didn't know he would care,
seriously.
he went to Serangoon Lan shop?
LOL.
to celebrate?
he went there to play online games with his friends.
kinda weird.
he can do other better things than that.
&
my father just gave him $20?
if it's me,
I'll reject it & ask him for something else...
something which cant be brought with MONEY.

that is...

FREEDOM.

i badly wants it.
it determines my Future.
& it would make my Life more meaningful.

i want to spread the Love,
to the people who are in need of it.
they need the care, the love & the appreciation.
i read a powerpoint slide about what Mother Teresa said.

i find that it's the fact,
as she helped so many people in proverty.
she knows how it was like.
there's more people who are hungry for Love & Appreciation than for bread.
&
the most terrible provery is loneliness & the feeling of being unloved.

i wanna do a part too,
i believed that i'll gain Happiness from it.
i Love helping people who are in need.
it's just that sometimes i wonder if i've the ability to help,
but i knows that God will help me through helping people by guiding.

i feel like telling the whole world!
those people are in need of your love & appreciation for them!
if you dont love them!
would you even care for them!
would you even bother about them!
would you even think about their survival!

they need love in order to have the will to live on.
send them food?
send them stationaries to study?
for a better education?
for a better living?

hey people in the world!
do a part in helping people who're living in proverty!
& people who needs love & care...
try your best to do whatever you can.
by going to do volunteery work during your free time.
i believe anyone can do it!
if there's a will, there's a way.

now...
there're only work, work & work in their mind.
they need to work in order to have money.
they need money in order to buy food, in order to let their children to receive education.
they need food in order to survive, their children need education to find a better working condition & higher pay.
they need survival in order to live life? they wants their children to have good working conditions & higher so that they won't have to worry so much.
all those listed includes love & the need of money.

sometimes,
people would wonder why do they live for.
the fact is that they should live life for God.
they shouldn't 'forget' God because of so much burden.

society's getting more complicated.
government's now telling people that they could work longer.
this is Life!
why can't they enjoy after working so long.
40 to 50 years of work?
it's tiring alright!

they should enjoy!
& they can do other things than work, work & work.
they can volunteer to help out with their perfect conditions of hands & legs.
they will feel a sense of happiness.
they will leave this world peacefully.
they won't regret.
they will leave this world with a SMILE. :)